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  "map_content": "When my Dad in this life, who was for me an immovable tyrant for the most part, was declining after deciding to reject the anti-parasitics and other treatments I suggested, he once said 'go North'. Then after he died, I met him in a 'dream', and he again said, \"go North\" while staring into the North. He looked sad so I gave him a 'hug' to comfort him. Then I felt horrible because I thought, why should I comfort someone who was the source of so much of my suffering in this life? That woke me up before I could hear what I needed to hear. Then last night, after declaring that I would let go of all burdens repeatedly, I met him again. I was in a house that was not one I remembered yet similar in feeling. I was... young? There were two cats. I was petting one and then another smaller one jumped into my hoody front pocket and then emerged from the other-side, and then it ran away, I heard 'meowing' and followed it downstairs, down and down. There I encountered a being shrouded in darkness, familiar somehow, yet I felt I should not have come, so I turned away and ran up the stairs. There I found Dad... he looked happy? I was explaining what had happened, perhaps, then I I felt others eyes on me, so I started to talk about how we could cure him, how it what all so simple and easy, and what we would do after... he still looked happy, butt then he was deathly ill and then happy and healthy, like he was changing between states based on my perception in the moment. Then I noticed... Mom. Or was it? It felt like it was her. Butt she had a pillow(?) over her face, I thought maybe she was crying? So I went to look behind the pillow and there she was crying, or smiling, or... something incomprehensible, like I was looking into the abyss or the void. Then I looked back at Dad, he was saying something again butt his voice was distant I wasn't able to pay attention any longer, all I remember was that he said, \"Take care of yourself\". Then my analytical mind engaged. What was I seeing? What did it mean? When I was there I was trying so desperately to remember. I felt the despair of forgetting of not being worthy, then I remembered, let is go. Let all the burdens go, even those that seem noble. Let the heart be as a feather. Align, do not force, do not regret. Till we meet again. Till the mysteries of life reveal themselves, till I remember all. Let the water-light flow, let the flower bloom, uncaptured yet eternal, let all fear fall behind and below me, and fear not the light and love ahead of me, fear of light so great is not fear at all, butt anticipation, of the feeling of breathing bright clear air after a seeming eternity in despair. That all my years and moments of rejecting the voices that just told me to destroy it all, to die. All that suffering, all that chosing of the light again and again even when all that was around me was darkness or false light. That I would one moment find myself again, in the ture light. I would recover was was lost so long ago, what was forgotten that was forgotten, and the light blooms through me, flows through me. I am the light and the light is I. I am no longer grasping at straws. I release all burdens, I am open to to the light of ALL, I receive all that is mine to receive, there is no joy in darkness, only in true light, and I am joy and joy is life. I sit in the sun and we are one and yet I am sovereign. In this moment there is no greater pleasure. I am free in spirit la~",
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